Close to loosing it entirely…. :)

Ohhh man !!! wat a nite it was!!! So eventful yet so peaceful….memories so hazy, yet so clear….It was exactly two months back ..September 19th… the nite I came so close to loosing it entirely.

It all began with a usual evening chain mail discussing the Friday nite plan. Unusually this time all hands were up at one shot without any “choo chan choo chan ” from neone. So after an hour long discussion over the mails about the transport and everything (which took less than the expected time) all were ready to rock n roll…

Manji took the lead here as he was more experienced than any of us. “Sab wahan time se pohunch jana. Baaki ka mein sambhaal loonga!” . “ Magar mera thoda loccha hai Manji yaar”. “Ek THAPPAD padega na tab samajh mein aayega”.
I had to go home and get dressed. At least I should look good when I loose it. In case any photos or videos were to be taken (not that people would concentrate on wat make up or clothes I was wearing that nite) I should at least look me. And then Debo goes “Abbe tum ladkiyon ko taiyaar kyun hona hota hai re? Hum log toh bas ek jeans aur T shirt pehna, deo lagaya toh lagaya nahi toh woh bhi nahi. Bas! Hogaye taiyaar. Tum logon ka toh natak hi rehta hai”.

While I was driving to the venue, my stomach was so full of butterflies. Was so totally excited that I felt like reaching the place instantly. But had to drive carefully and slowly so that my hair do did not spoil.
And so I finally reached the place. The nite that I had been waiting for all my life was finally here. And I finally laid my first step to adulthood. The ambience was just as I had imagined. They had indeed taken care. Music being played in the background. Everyone enjoying themselves, getting comfortable. I made sure there was enough protection so that no body would have to face the consequence. I was told by my well wishers not to get wild, because that was not how it is in Indian cities.

So we directly got down to business. Discussing whos with whom. Seeking help from the maestros and pros. Finally we decided to make it through shots. I was about to take the first step towards losing it. I could feel the Adrenaline Rush!! I also wanted to make sure that we posed the right way, so that all kind of indecency was avoided. The first shot was deliberately slow, but once it went in completely, it was divine, a bit Painful but divine! It is fair to experience some pain to gain pleasure. The pleasure was inexplicable. I asked for more! The second was better, I was getting used to that feeling. I was loving it. I felt as if my life was finally complete. With tears in my eyes but a sweet smile on my face I kept asking for more. The more I had the more I kept wanting. Fighting with others for my share of fun, shouting while having it, is all wat I remember after that.

And then I thought I should stop, I had almost lost it…
They say, “It is not integrity but lack of opportunity.”
I had the opportunity and I lost "it". never to be found again.
It kept coming and I enjoyed every moment of it....... until I puked. All that had gone in came out. But the pleasure still remained... the pleasure of being the king (queen) of the world, the moment of loosing my senses completely. And thus ended the most amazing date of my life at Apache with Mr. Alcohol!!!